The Things I Would Have Said in a Clearer Mind 10 Years Ago

What I wish I could have said 10 years ago with a clearer mind and more time,

When we knew we were losing you and we had to say goodbye,

While you sat there pouring out your heart, and I sat there falling fast apart,

You could see past the tears and into my future, knowing how much would change,

I couldn’t see past our holding hands, knowing all I wanted was to turn life’s page.

What I wish I could have said 10 years ago with a clearer mind a more time,

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

I love you, I love you, I love you.

Thank you for being an example of love, selflessness, joy, and bravery,

Thank you for teaching me about God, friendship, fitness, and health,

Thank you for giving me your squinty eyes, it’s an honor to be half of you,

Thank you for making me feel like I could pursue whatever and be whoever I wanted,

What you’ve given me is priceless and can’t fully be put into words.

But, what I wish I could have said 10 years ago with a clearer mind and more time,

When we knew we were losing you and we had to say goodbye,

I will miss you for the rest of my life and while It doesn't feel like we got you very long,

I am just lucky to have had you as my mom.